The secret Cuckold

Just as I was leaving university I met the woman who was to become my wife. She was considerably older than me (I was 23 and she was 35) but she looked very young for her age and could put most of the girls in my year group to shame. Sex with her was quite amazing - she knew exactly what she liked and enjoyed giving pleasure to others! In the early days we engaged in a whole host of kinky sexual activities (which no doubt I will return to at some point), however as our relationship matured some interesting feelings began to emerge in me.

At the age of 35, she was slim, sexy, intelligent and confident. As we went about our lives, attending parties and working, she would constantly attract the attention of men. She clearly enjoyed this attention, and for some strange reason so did I! Whenever we went to a party, some bloke (sometimes several) would always make a beeline for her, exchanging flirty remarks and cheeky little comments. Her flirtatious behaviour just came naturally to her, as did my private arousal at the attention she received and gave back. I would simply take a step back and let her enjoy this attention - I could see the men eyeing her up and down, I could feel the sexual chemistry mixing with the alcohol. She enjoyed being desired by men. On a few occasions the men would engage with me in conversation, presumably wondering why I would let them ogle my girlfriend all evening - there were even times when both of them would turn on me, making humiliating and derogatory 'jokes' - usually comments about me being into bondage, s&m or even taking it up the arse!

All of my feelings culminated during one particular period. I was very busy with work, desperately climbing my career path, neglecting my girlfriend in the process. She worked in a shop where she developed a flirtatious friendship with a male colleague, who ran a shop for the same company but in a different town. He lived just around the corner from the shop where she worked though. He was tall (about 6'2"), dark (black) and handsome! She started to get home from work later and later - I thought this was a bit strange as it wasn't a job she particularly liked. Her explanantions were getting less and less believable. My growing suspicions led me to start searching through her bag and her mobile texts. What I found straight away made my heart race with shock and excitement. I found little notes from him in her bag, presumably that he had left for her in her shop - things like 'Hey sexy I'm thinking about you now' and 'you are sex'. When I searched her phone messages it all became too clear - 'See you at the usual time and place' and 'I'm running a bit late' were regulars. I even found one that suggested she mix a bit of her shit in with my dinner one night!

I didn't really know what to do. I knew what was happening was wrong but for some reason I found it a massive turn on. I decided to not let on that I knew and watch her more closely than ever before. I started to wank about them - imagining his huge cock (being almost black he must surely have had a big cock!) in her mouth and pussy - imagine her touching his cock, guiding it into her pussy, begging him to fuck her harder - his hands on her perfect tits, all over her fabulous body, maybe even treating her a bit rough by pinning her down to the bed (she always did like that). I kept observing her and imagining them for weeks and weeks. She was getting more and more casual about covering up her behaviour - I swear one night she came in and got straight into the bath - I watched her undress to see she had no kickers on! I looked through her bag, there was no sign of them - she must have given them to him! This then prompted me to start sniffing her panties - I may have been imagining it but I'm sure I could smell his spunk.

Then one night she just didn't arrive home. She obviously assumed I would be working late as usual but I had decided to get home early so I could do more snooping. I rang her phone but it was turned off. It got later and later, eventually I decided to go around to where she worked to see if I could see her. There was an alleyway down the side of the shop, I knew if I went down there quietly I would get a view into the rear of the shop. When I got there I saw them both straight away - she was leaning against the desk, he looked like he had just come back from buying some wine. I got myself into a position where I could clearly see them through the window. He opened the bottle and poured them both a glass. She had a sip then put it down - she didn't seem too interested in her drink. She summoned him towards her, he leant down and started to kiss her. They kissed passionately. My heart was beating so hard and loud I was sure they would hear it! My cock started twitching. She pushed him off of her, and her hands went towards his trousers - she was going for his cock. She unzipped his fly and took out his cock - I didn't have a particularly good view but even I could see he had a pretty big, black cock. She held it in her hand and stroked it whilst looking up at him and speaking - she then started to wank him off whilst continously talking - I couldn't here but it looked like she was talking dirty! His cock grew erect - so did mine! She pushed him back a bit so that she could get on her knees - then they swapped positions so that he was leant against the desk and she had her back to me. She pulled his trousers down and took them off him. I now had a perfect view of his cock - it was at least 8in, probably a bit bigger - it was quite thick as well. She took his cock in her mouth and started to suck him off with real determination - all I could now see was the back of her head bobbing in and out. He was looking down at her and clearly enjoying it. This continued for about five minutes - every now and then she would take her face off of his cock and give it a wank, whilst looking up at him and obviously saying something sexy. I had become paralysed, completely overcome with fear and desire in a way I had never experinced before.

What happened next blew my mind. After giving him a good blowjob, she got up off her knees and stepped back. She started to undress for him, first of all taking off her top, then her bra, making sure she gave her perfect c cup tits and good fondle. Then she unzipped her skirt and let it drop to the floor - she had no knickers on! But that wasn't the amazing bit - she pulled him off the desk and leant back against it herself. She spread her legs and showed him what was clearly a freshly shaved pussy - she started to rub her clit, all the while looking at him and talking dirty. He was slowly wanking his cock. She inserted a finger into her pussy and started to fuck her self - then she took it out and put it into her mouth, sucking off her juices. She then put two fingers in, then three, then four! She was fucking herself quite vigorously, periodically taking them out and licking and sucking them. It appeared as if she was proving to him that she was ready to take his fat cock. She then took her fingers out and opened up her pussy, gesturing to him to come and shove his cock in. He moved across to her and obligingly pushed himself against her - I could not see his cock go in but the look on her face said it all - it was clearly one very fat cock as she let out a high pitched moan, the first time I actually could here her. He then started to slowly fuck her, she ran her hands across his back and onto his arse, pulling him into her. As he picked up the pace a bit she let out another moan - hearing her really made me hot, by this time I was vigorously rubbing my cock through my jeans. I watched them as he fucked her, getting gradually harder and quicker - every now and then she would let out a moan. After a while he slowed down and she said something in his ear, with which he slowly pulled his cock out and stepped back a bit - she climbed off the desk and dropped to her knees and began to lick and suck his cock! She did this for a minte or two and then got back on the desk, this time bent over so he could take her from behind - I was now getting seriously hot down below! He inserted his cock into her again and she let out the loudest moan yet. As he started to fuck her she moved her hand behind her and inserted a finger into her arse - I was blown away again by this, I could not believe just how much of a slut she was being.

It was at this point that things changed - I inadvertantly came in my pants, making a real sticky wet mess! Upon my immediate release I also suddenly realised just what was going on - I felt physically sick, I just had to get out of there - I turned and ran out of the alleyway, clattering the gate against the wall as I left. All I wanted to do was get out of there as quickly as possible, get home and clean myself up.

She arrived home about 45 minutes after me. I had managed to calm myself down a bit. She came in and acted completely normal, as if she had just been to the shops, not taking a whopping big cock! Although I found all of this a huge turn on I simply could not contain this within myself any more - she would see from simply looking at me that something was affecting me in a fairly major way - so I decided to let her know I knew about this. I tried to do it in such a way that it left the door open for her to carry on but with my knowledge, involving me in the experience. Unfortunately this fell on deaf ears as she was extremely upset at being found out - I don't think she quite understood why as was happy to let her carry on, in fact it seemed to bother her quite a lot! In the end we worked through it in a way that saved our relationship, but for me it has never been quite the same since (we are now married believe it or not!) - I still fantasise about her with other men but I don't think it will ever happen the way I would like it too.

My first dominant teen girl

Whilst back at my home town for Christmas when I was at university, I met a very sexy girl at a bar one night - she used to work with my stepbrother and knew the friend I was with. We started chatting and I immediately felt very attracted to her. She was about 5'10", blond hair in a bob, very pretty, her name was Louisa and she was 17 at the time (I was 21). We spent the entire evening chatting to them (she was with a friend but for the life of me I cannot remember anything about her). We had a great night and I asked her back to my house, she said yes. It was my last night of the Christmas break (sods law I'd been desperate all holiday), I was going back to uni the following day. We spent the night together, but we never had sex - not really sure why, she kept saying she thought I was an arsehole just using her, so I felt obliged to not push it too far. We kissed and cuddled and slept.

Louisa was very brash - in fact to be honest I found her quite intimidating. Although she was only young, she had had her fair share of shit in life - this had made her tough and slightly cynical. I found her attitude quite appealing for some reason - I wanted to see her again as soon as possible. I arranged to come back to my home town the following weekend, without the knowledge of my parents. My plan was that I could rent a room in a hotel so we could be together.

The weekend soon came. I headed back to my home town and met up with Louisa. We spent the night drinking in varoius local pubs. Her boldness made me very nervous - as she sensed my nervousness something inside her stirred. She had spent most of her young life being pushed around by guys - she was always on the receiving end of some guys shitty attitude. This had made her tough. Looking back now it was as if meeting me was the first time she could get her own back.

She constantly jibed me about being weak and timid - I wasn't usually that timid, but in her presence I became more and more so. She knew this and was clearly enjoying it. When the time came for us to go to our hotel, I was excited but also increasingly nervous. She had begun to taunt me, about whether I had it in me to give her 'a good seeing to' - she had decided that if I did not have it in me to 'sort her out' like all of the other guys had done, then she would relish 'sorting me out' instead.

Once in our room, we started making out on the bed. I laid on my back as she undressed me - I was quickly naked. She kept it thay way for a while - me naked whilst she was fully clothed. We kissed paasionately, I became extremely aroused and had a huge stiffy - I rubbed agaist the crotch of her jeans. Louisa got hold of my arms and pinned them above my head - 'You're feeling horny now aren't you. Are you gonna give me a good fucking? Have you got it in you to pin me down and give me a hard fucking, eh? I don't think you have! I think you're too scared! HA HA!!' I was paralysed by her taunting - she was putting me on the spot and bringing out my deepest, darkest fears of insecurity. I felt so horny but I did not have the strength to suddenly take control. As soon as she knew this was the case she knew she had me where she wanted me for the entire night!

I lay on the bed, at the mercy of her will. She took her jeans and top off, she laid on top of me in her bra and panties. She would let me stroke her body - which was fantastic, size 8-10 with lovely C-cup breasts. This is how it went - we would be passionately embracing and kissing - as soon as I started to get seriously aroused Louisa would stop dead and lean up - 'So you wanna fuck me eh? Well if you do then you know what to do - but you can't can you! You are pathetic!' With this she slapped me across the face. Then she pinned my arms down to the bed again - she rubbed my groin with her knee, pushing it hard into my cock and balls. Looking down at me with a glare, Louisa smiled and then kissed me passionately - she was clearly becoming very turned on by the control she had over me. This continued over and over - passionately kissing and embracing. Each time I 'got going' she would stop and take control - the 'punishment' for my weakness gradually got harder and harder, moving from slaps in the face to gentle knees in the groin, biting, scratching and spitting. All the time this was going on she got more and more aroused.

This went on for quite some time - until about four in the morning. I felt exhausted from the continual arousal and denial. Louisa clearly enjoyed my agony - the promise of giving me satisfaction, taking me close and then slamming the door in my face. When she rubbed her crotch against me, I could feel the dampness through her knickers. I eventually realised the futility of my actions and gave in. I was exhausted, very horny but very tired. Louisa obviously felt as if she had won in some way - she sat on top of me and rather than letting me sleep decided she wanted to probe her new conquest a bit more - 'So how come you didn't just fuck me then? Most blokes tonight would have just grabbed hold of me and fucked me. Why didn't you just do that? Are you queer? That's it isn't it! Ha Ha Ha! You would rather get fucked than do the fucking. Maybe you'd like to suck a cock? Eh?' I acted horrified at the suggestion, but I didn't really give her an explanation for my subservience as I didn't really have one. Eventually we fell asleep in an embrace.

That first night really set the scene for what was to become a very short but intense relationship. I found her completely compelling - I'm not sure what she made of me, I think a lot of the time she wondered why I wanted to see her. She was only 17 years old, but she had me sussed pretty much straight away. Beneath her hard and confrontational exterior was a scared and lonely person, but someone who was also vary caring and loving. Our long distance relationship fizzled out fairly quickly, but I still find myself thinking about her to this day.

My first taste of cock - BIG and BLACK!

Whilst at university I experienced my very first cock. What was even better was that it was huge and black! Mmmmmmmm!! I was at a party one night around a fellow students house - it was a fairly mad party with lots of people getting drunk and being silly. I managed to get EXTREMELY drunk, to the point where a large chunk of the evening is a complete blank. What I do know is that at some point in the evening I started flirting with a gay black guy, who was about the same age as me (21). I remember putting my hand on his arse and giving it a stroke. I think that is all that was required, as at the end of the evening we ended up back at his place.

We ended up on his bed, we were very quickly both naked. All I wanted to do was get his cock in my mouth - I had fantasised about doing such a thing so many times, I could'nt belive it was about to happen for real. My first memory of putting cock in my mouth was just how soft and fleshy it felt - for some reason I always imagined a 'big hard cock' as being just that - hard! I found it quite strange at first but was also overcome with how fucking naughty I was being! What would my friends have thought (I was a 'straight' guy)? I just kept sucking and sucking, feeling like a little slut. I remember moving up his body, kissing his stomach, his chest, then kissing him on the lips! That was very strange indeed, but so horny! When our cocks touched each other for the first time my head nearly exploded - a really lovely feeling to rub your cock against another guys. As a size comparison his must have been 2 inches bigger than mine - and I have 7 inches!

I remember at some point begging him to 'fuck me like a dog' - I got on all fours, he was behind me, I was wiggling my arse around saying 'please fuck me like a slut, like a fucking dog'. He rubbed his huge shaft across my arse, it really was fucking massive. Sadly we did not have any condoms (I was far too horny to care myself) so he would not fuck me - probably a god job as he was huge!

I got back down to suck him off again, I wanted his lovely hot jizz in my mouth. I sucked and sucked, applying myself to the task of making his big black cock spunk. After a few minutes he started to cum, I got a huge load in my mouth and nearly choked. It tasted very salty, and was thick and gooey! Being the good little straight boy slut I swallowed every drop and even clean it of his stomach.

Now what happened at the end still gets me going now at a moments notice! After he was all done, I started to wank myself off onto his cock. It took about two minutes before I shooted my hot jizz all over his big black cock. As I was done he said 'Now lick up your own mess you little queer...' I was very shocked by this, I did'nt really expect it. I moved my head down towards his cock, but as I had come my desire level had vanished and I could smell my own cum! He put his hands on my head and pushed me towards his still hard cock, as he appeared to give me no choise I licked it all up - it made me feel a bit sick to be honest! Following that I suddenly felt REALLY BAD about what I had just done - I could not believe I had lost all my inhibitions so easily. I made my way back to the halls of residence and went to bed. The next day I awoke and felt even worse - the guilt and shame of what I had done, coupled with my big, bad hangover. I spent the next two and a half years worrying whether he had told anyone we both knew at uni! Still, when I think back to it now, I get so horny. I wish I still knew him and could pop round to his for a suck whenever I felt like it!

My kinky experiences - phone sex.

This really deserves a category all of it's own. Phone sex was the first way I found of connecting with another person to share my deep, dark and disgusting desires. The following is a small selection of the most memorable experiences I had (to this day I still derive huge pleasure from phone sex).

My first real phone sex. I had left home and was living with two flat mates whilst at uni. This was my first real freedom away from home. I began to suss out the best (and cheapest) ways to have phone sex. It took a few bodged attempts before I sussed that if I joined a service that provided live call back (when you ring them and they call you back for the actual phone sex) it was cheaper as you bought the time in blocks, and it would not show up on our shared phone bill. Eventually I found myself bunking off uni on my own, stripping off naked in our hallway (it was a corded landline phone so would not reach anywhere else) and confessing my darkest desires to whoever it was on the other end. I always had a cucumber or other cock like implement to suck and fuck.

The best ever time. I was by this time working, living in my own flat with my girlfriend. I was at home during the day on my own, which seemed a great opportunity to get kinky! I had been thinking for a while about pissing, specifically pissing on myself - wouldn't it be great to be told to do it by someone else. I got naked, got in the bath in my echoe'y bathroom and dialled the number. The girl I got through to was youthful, natural, confident and open minded. I told her my desire - she laughed at first, then said she thought it was a great idea. She seemed to genuinely enjoy the thought of making me do this to myself - she thought it was really funny, which made me feel fabulously humiliated. She said 'OK then I want you to start pissing on yourself....come on then...' I was finding it hard to get started. Eventually my piss started to flow. 'Yes that's it baby, let that lovely piss spray up your chest' she said, 'Now I want you to aim it into your mouth...that's it, try and get as much in your mouth as you can.' It was spraying all over my face, running off my chin, some went into my mouth. All my lovely, warm, salty piss. She could hear the sound of it splatting on my face and in my mouth, 'That's it, drink your own piss down you dirty little fucker!' By now she was laughing out loud, enjoying my self inflicted humiliation. I finished pissing. I thought that was the end - she had other ideas. As I lay there in my bath, in a puddle of my own piss, she went on - 'Ok you dirty fucking perv. Do you know what I want you to do now?' No, I said. 'I want you to squeeze out a little shit.' I was shocked, I had never thought of this! 'Come on, see if you can squeeze out a little bit of shit for me!' She was clearly enjoying this so much, so although I was a bit shocked I decided to have a go. I managed to pop out a little bit. 'Now take it in your hand, rub it around your hard cock. Thats it, all over that filthy fucking cock. Now smear it all over you stomach, now your chest.' By this time she was laughing almost uncontrollably, 'I can't believe I've made you drink your own piss and smear your own shit on yourself! You are one dirty little fucker! Ok, you know what to do now right? Slide down the bath a bit...OK, now put your legs above your head...Thats it. I want you to wank your shitty, filthy cock until you spunk all over your face and in your mouth! Go on, do it!' I needed no encouragement, within a minute I was shooting my thick, hot spunk all over my face. Unfortunately I instinctively closed my mouth as soon as I started to come but it still went all over my face.

It was as if I suddenly awoke from a dream - lying in my own piss, covered in my own shit and cum. I felt disgusting, but knew it was the most intense experience I had had so far. I said thanks - 'Ok my lovely, well you certainly seemed to enjoy that! Take care my love. Bye.' Her lovely, gentle but genuine approach to enjoying my humiliation was simply fantastic. I never managed to speak to her again.

My kinky experiences - teens through to manhood!

Whilst growing up I started to have experiences with girls, however these were mostly very 'normal', you could not describe them as kinky in any way. My kinky tendencies had become hidden within my own guilt ridden world - I had become convinced I was some kind of freak. These powerful emotions simply added to the thrill, however. It became an intoxicating experience to immerse myself in my own filthy, rude world.

Being naked outdoors. This became my biggest pre-occupation. I would go to incredible lengths to find secluded places where I could strip completely naked and wank! Quite often I would be on my way somewhere (my friends lived in another village, which required a 45 minute walk through fields and woodlands). I started to hunt out and assess the suitability of places. I had a couple of good spots, however fear always stopped me going all the way. I would be completely naked apart from I would keep my trousers round my ankles. I particularly enjoyed it when it was raining, rolling around and rubbing my cock into the muddy ground.

Cock fantasies. When I started to come across porn, particularly semi-hardcore with erect cocks, I found myself getting incredibly horny looking at the sight of a big, hard cock. At first it was always the sight of a lovely young thing taking a cock in her hand or mouth that got me going. My own interpretation of this was to imagine myself a slutty little teen and find as many cock like things to suck as possible. I would lovingly stroke, kiss and lick the shaft (of, say, an aerosol bottle or a cucumber) then take the whole thing in my mouth and suck it good n proper. It didn't take long for me to graduate onto cock up my arse fantasies, I would soon be riding huge cocks whilst sucking on at least two (all of this on my bathroom floor whilst my parents were downstairs or out shopping!).

My kinky experiences - the early years

I have always had a very vivid and intense imagination - this started at a very young age! Here are a few of my earliest encounters of any significance:

Stripping naked with my sister and her friends. As a young child it gave me great excitement (and a stiffy) to strip naked in the company of my sister and one of her friends. We all stripped, they laughed at my boner, we never made any physical contact. These encounters sparked my first fantasies for being humiliated by girls - I would often imagine being stripped naked by a group of my sisters friends and generally laughed at and maybe kicked!

Naked games with some of my friends. I had one friend in particular, who lived across the road, who enjoyed stripping naked with me and acting out what were basically bondage fantasies (not that we knew it at the time). We took it in turns being tied up, naked, in a large sack. This was followed by spanking each others naked bottoms with a variety of implements - spoons, sticks etc. What I remember most about my friend was that he had an enormous cock and lots of pubic hair (which at that age was very unusual).

Generally being a naughty boy on my own. I always felt horny from a very young age. I started hunting out rude pics from Page 3 topless babes to the Littlewoods catalogue lingerie section - anywhere I could find it! I didn't start getting hold of porn until my teens.

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